Ever feel like you’ve got so much going on that nothing is getting the best of you! At the end of a day like today, I feel like a failure as a mother, wife, friend and just in general! Need to learn something from this?! Stop over committing myself? Learn to say NO? Do what is important to me and my family and the other stuff just has to wait?
My little girl has been ill and my little boy is struggling to adjust to school…
With that thought – I didn’t get my workout in today!
M1 : Lean 95 and a slice of toast
M2 : Slice of toast with cheese and tomato
M3 : Lean 95
M4 : 2 Rusks and tea
M5 : Hot Chocolate and a low fat apple cinnamon muffin and chocolate covered nuts!
M6 : Salmon and veggies.
Not the best day but I accomplished something today……………… I didn’t BINGE at the end of today – even though I really wanted to and even though I felt justified to give up! I stopped myself & for that reason I think maybe I’m not a failure!
It’s just past 11pm and it’s been a long day!
I achieved all my goals except the one about only having 1 rusk! I had 2 again…. ah the Ouma’s Breakfast rusks are DEVINE! My perfect comfort with a cup of tea in the afternoon… With that beautiful thought – let me share the highs of my day.
Getting back into the gym felt so good, even for the 30 minutes I snuck given my daughter is not well. It helped me cope better with the day, knowing I got in there – even though I never planned to. Was a last min decision and so glad I did it.
M1 : High protein slice of french toast and a smidgen of all gold
M2 : Lean 95
M3 : Egg white frittata with leaks, mushroom and tomato with a tiny amount of gouda and garlic
M4 : Tea and 2 rusks
M5 : Lean 95
M6 : Fruit and frozen yogurt 100ml
All in all – I’m happy with today. Given some of the things happening in my life, i’m happy to be able to say that today I inched my way one step closer to my goals!
🙂 Over and out
Goal for tomorrow, a good workout, better lean protein meals, go shopping for some fish and fresh veg, 2 lean 95 meals again and MORE water!
I can because I BELIEVE that I can!
All in all not a bad day (I thought until I actually typed this out and then I realise all over again, the importance of planning beforehand)
M1 : Lean 95
M2 : Egg Whites, tomato, 2 slices of toast, baked beans, 2 rashes of bacon
M3 : Tea & 2 rusks
M4 :Egg white frittata with mushrooms, leaks and tomato
M5 : a frozen yogurt with pomegranate seeds
M6 : Coco pops bar (which was in my handbag because a friend gave it to me for my daughter)
Thankful to have gotten in an arm and shoulders workout.
Don’t feel too bad about the day, still know I’m making progress. I’m going to do better tomorrow.
Every morning – I will be grateful for a brand new chance to start the day better than the last… 🙂
Goal for tomorrow, get more water in, eat max 3 hours after each meal so I will time myself and get in 2 meals of lean 95 and try for only 1 rusk and no coco pops bar 🙂
My day consisted of special time with my daughter walking then meeting up with 2 lovely friends, breakfast and a mall walk, my all new school run, seeing another dear friend, dealing with my delightful Daniel having the worst tantrum to date! Getting home and having some me time, to food shopping, home to cook, back to shop to return off salmon! Then watching the Best Exotic Marigold Hotel for the second time. Watched it last night for the first time and cried my eyes out! Seriously one of the MOST beautiful movies ever!
All in all a good food day, Had my Greenglory twice today! 2 small portions of Strawberries, a yummy healthy eggwhite, tomato, beef bacon brunchy breakfast and a slice of toast, orange juice and a capaccino, 2 seedy rusks, nice portion of brocolli, butternut and carrots for dinner (minus the salmon) Tomorrow will aim for more lean protein. A a proper workout… not just a walk. But really chuffed and feel good! (for the record, I plan to post on here daily now for the next seven days what i’m eating and doing – so incase I go quiet…. feel free to nudge me 🙂 )
While I’m not going to place my self worth in numbers, I am still going to post them here… Just to keep myself going and accountable.
As at 10pm on the 30 September,
So here I sit, 30 September and haven’t posted since July.
I have really struggled to refocus and hit the same ‘high notes’ as I was hitting earlier in the year. This is for many reasons. In the physical it’s not really important…. What is important – is how we choose to deal with things and move forward.
You hear so often that it’s not what happens but our attitude towards it that defines us. This has hit home to me louder over the last few months.
I have also found myself challenging myself as to the reasons behind wanting to lose weight.
I didn’t do this to win the approval of people! I didn’t do this because I hated myself! I didn’t do this because I couldn’t accept me for me!
It’s because I love myself, that I decided to give myself an opportunity to focus on my health and lose weight. Lose the same weight that in many ways was safe for me to carry because on some level it proved to me that people who love me, love me for me. I don’t need this security any more! I’m free of this weighty prison! I want to continue my journey to be as healthy as I can be. To challenge myself to do new things and be a great example to my children of having an active lifestyle and fuller life. In many ways I had given up on myself and my dreams before this journey began. Every day following the GloryGirl guidelines and doing my workouts and filling my head and heart with The Word and positive thoughts, my dreams and positive people empowered me to keep going because I was proving something new to myself!
So I want to shout out! That this is not about the numbers! This is not about the scale and what it tells me. What is important is the condition of my heart!
Now today I look at 1 October as my own mini challenge to myself. To finish this year STRONGER! Emotionally I’m in the right place and I’m going to do, what I set out to do on the 1 January 2012!
Love me or leave me – I am me and what is important is what I believe about me!
So I woke up yesterday morning a bit shocked by my scale, it crept upto 90.7kg’s and with that shock I decided not to wait until next week to get back up……. I refocussed immediately and so for 2 days now I have been training and eating like a pro…..
Amazing how much better I feel again, just knowing I’m fueling my body correctly…
As much as I enjoyed my indulgent couple of weeks…….. I feel even better knowing i’m refocussed and I am gonna rock the rest of July.
Watch this space 🙂
Sitting here a year older, but feeling better than I have in years!
So for 2 months I haven’t posted, so sorry! Physically stats wise I haven’t changed much… (Lost some more, but after 3 weeks of festivites and allowing myself to indulge) I’ve regained the couple I lost… so sitting just below 90kg’s now.
Not upset though, because I know what to do to get back on track and the excitement of kicking into ”high performance” next week is just motivation enough, to enjoy times like these… but perform when the time is here.
I celebrated my 28th Birthday this week and had a lovely birthday dinner, attended by most of the important people in my life, my mother, my sister both flew in from South Africa and my brother and his wife from Qatar… Just really meant alot that they made such an effort to be there! My friends were amazing too and I was totally spoiled. What made me even happier, was feeling amazing! I know I’m not at my goal yet! But I choose to celebrate the progress I’ve made and beginning this journey and sticking with it, is one of the BEST gifts I have ever given myself.
As you know, I started April a bit deflated after gaining weight while on holiday. I then challenged myself to go onto ”high performance” for the month of April to lose weight to get me out of the 90’s, as of Monday the 30th April, I weighed in at 89.7kg’s! AND YES I never THRASHED the 90’s like I wanted to! BUT I lost over 8kg’s during April! I was unable to train for over 2 weeks and for that reason alone I am super proud to have achieved my goal for April!
It is so satisfying to achieve goals… that you set for yourself. Yes, others can plant the seed and challenge you, but unless you take it up for youself and challenge yourself – nothing will happen.
ALSO unless you think about what you want, and plan to achieve it, you never going to get there….
So I challenge you to think about these important questions, what do you want out of your life? Are you where you want to be? What do you want to do differently? What are your dreams? Think about them… and start to manage your own little project plan with your life and set goals for yourself! You can achieve anything you set your mind to!
I cannot believe how different I feel about myself and I know that I am capable, I have always been capable – but I needed to believe that!
START BELIEVING! AND you WILL be ACHIEVING!
I actually feel pretty emotional right now. I haven’t had the best week at all and I also haven’t been able to train because I’ve had a chest infection brewing… Being back at work, was very conscious to just put on a brave face and make it through the day! Well tonight I got on the scale and I’m 91kg’s – I also pulled out my bags full of clothes and tried this dress on – I was given this last year but ofcourse haven’t been able to wear it! Tonight I thought let me just try and wow, it was like a glove!
Feeling seriously grateful right now! To my coach, Nadine! To myself for just keeping committed to my goal. I know I still have a way to go – but I’m celebrating these steps and this is pretty big milestone to me!
Last time I weighed 91 kg’s was very briefly about 3.5 years ago, while I was pregnant with Daniel and getting serious morning sickness I went to 91kg’s… and before that was probably just before my wedding.
So I’m feeling very grateful and even more motivated to keep going!
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